i need to sing

I'm sitting at home alone and so bored. I hate those days when you're just low and can't get over it. It's kind of been hanging over me all day.

Anyway, I am dying to be in a band. I need to sing so badly. I miss it. I miss the creativity. I wish I had some freaking friends around here that could start a band with me. I would love it. Or, if I wasn't singing, I could at least listen to my friends play and write music and maybe even give a little imput.

I have feeling all down on myself right now. I don't have much confidence in myself right now either. I hate this. Sometimes I just get tired of my life. I wouldn't want to be anyone else, but it seems like whenever I think things are working out for me (at least lately anyway) there drops the bomb and there I am left to pick up the pieces again.

I don't want to cry again today.